Evan my love,
As I am going through these court proceedings with your biological father. I have come to terms with a lot of things. I want you to always know that I love you. You are the best thing that has happened to me. I could not picture life without you. Though Mark may never come to be a father to my standards and he's in your life, then you need to make those decisions and decipher those decisions through. If he is not in your life, then God would've already given you someone who you are calling Father.

I am going to keep having these conversations to you so when you are able to talk back....I know that it is not the first time or the last time that we will talk about it. That I am here to support you through your decisions and emotions.

You are a product of love. I did love Mark so much that you are now here. God wanted to bless me with you. Provide me with such a beautiful child that I can love and raise. Teach and learn with.

You are something else though. Your pitching screams that get so loud and powerful. I think I need ear plugs some days if not most days. I still love you.

You are not walking yet but SOON! You're getting so heavy.

I love you.

Mom